January 2010
1 post
Tired of this life.
What a nightmare (: My life cant just get enough worst. Theres no one to run to cuz no one believes me. I dont get it , they said they understands me supports me or whatsoever but to think back….Are they? If they are i would not feel like a loner. They thought im crazy, insane, out my mind…. Okay, yea im CRAZY! CUZ NO ONE CARES!! Am i that useless? Am i? Pity me and no one really damn...
December 2009
2 posts
Its a matter of time.
I think im gonna go away, vanished from this life. I really want to go cuz i had enough. Im sick and no one realise that, i know i love to fake around and act like everything is okay. But the fact is im not okay ): Im weak and awfully in dreadful pain. Theres no one to save me and no one could. People dont get me as i get them. I tried to live hard as i could but i dont think i can stand longer....
Weakness reveals.
My previous day was like HELL! Days goes by i felt the same. I dont even know myself anymore. I cant figured out whats going on with my phatethic life. My heart is falling to pieces ): Im weak and sad. Those pains and hatred hit me really bad, it really effects me. No im not saying that i am crazy, NO! Im just a girl that needs a cure for this pain. Im just a girl who wants to be love, miss,...
November 2009
6 posts
When i think of you.
Everytime when im all alone, in my mind there was only you. I think about the good and bad times we shared together for years and thats when i realised how hard it is to just forget about you. But the pain you gave me just kept fighting over the good things you did to me. Its really hard to accept the pain. I admit im not over it, feels like i should do something but im not sure. Im too much in...
Over You.
Now thats all said and done, i cant believe you were the one that build me up and tear me down like an old abandoned house. What you said when you left, you left me cold and out of breath I felt i was in way too deep, guess i let you get the best of me. I never saw it coming I should have started running a long long time ago and i never thought i doubt you im better off without you more than you...
Ergh i want her hair!!!
Ergh im craving for her hair! I want to cut my hair like hers.Unfortunately if kan buat rambut cemani mesti have thick hair. My hair not thick sudah wah, nipis ah ): Tapi i want to cut my hair macam selena gomez jua ): I WANT HER HAIR I WANT HER HAIR!!!!!!!!! ):
The situation is getting colder.
Okay seems my love life didnt work out well. No im not saying i wanna walkaway but i do want to work things out. To think about it i just want to start it all over or begin a new chapter. I dont know how it will go but just for once i want us to be just happy together. I just want to stop that stupid fight, stupid argument and think about our lives than others. I felt we didnt know eachother for...
Wish for a better life.
If i could lie under the sun everyday and listen to the sound of waves i’ll wish for happiness. But nothing seems to go well everytime i close my eyes. I live hard everyday, i didnt gain so much weight but i do gain so much pain. People around me doesnt seem to care, oh wait! Who am i to care? Im just nothing but a trash. I wish for a better life.
Say what?
Okay guess what? The dinner went well ( : I freakin enjoyed it, infact everyone seems to enjoy it too ( : But it was really a tiring day for me, i didnt have enough sleep. I only slept for 2hours and it aint good cuz my eyes just felt like sleeping, okay nevermind that. So i felt i want to let out something here, its about the person that i was talking about in my previous post. Okay...
October 2009
3 posts
Hush.
Tomorrow i’ll have my dinner with my two siblings with their boyfriend and girlfriend. So i bring my man too. So there will be a couple night out, yeah! ( : I am really looking forward for tomorrow plan, hope it will go on well and fun. And hope theres no one else except for us. But i heard that my sister will be invinting someone which spoiled my mood and also my brother. That someone...
Sigh !
Okay, he did text me and even misscalled me. Ya im happy but at the same time im mad plus sad. Im still upsad ) : I didnt return back his calls nor reply his message, i still dont have the mood to settle that problem with him. But i do admit i really miss him and even i miss the old us ) : Im so dissapointed, i did what he told me to but he didnt do what i told him to. I realise he had...
New ( :
Hello there earthlings. So as you all know im kinda new at this tumblr thingy. I dont know actually how it works but i’ll manage it : D Im trying to cheer myself up right now. My relationship is having a massive breakdown, hm i really think its over ) : I cant lie i love him so much, we’ve been together for almost five years now. Its hard to forget, i have try once but it...