Azieaugust.

Sigh !

Okay, he did text me and even misscalled me. Ya im happy but at the same time im mad plus sad. Im still upsad ) : I didnt return back his calls nor reply his message, i still dont have the mood to settle that problem with him. But i do admit i really miss him and even i miss the old us ) : Im so dissapointed, i did what he told me to but he didnt do what i told him to. I realise he had changed a little. I dont even know does he truly love me or no. I tried so hard to be the girl he wants but he just cant seem to see. I know it really hurts him when i dated my ex a long time ago, at that time we were still together but i went out with other guy infact i accepted him to be my boyfriend. Maybe he want to get revenge because of the past? I know i was a jerk a long time ago, but he should know the purpose im becoming that jerk girl. People can change and im changing for the sake of our love. I didnt force myself to change but i want to. I want to be a better girl for him infact i want our relationship to stand longer and have kids of our own, be with eachother everyday and build a really happy family. But now i only think thats as a dream. A dream that maybe will not come true, i dont know its up to the one that made us. All im sure is i really love him so much, i never love a guy before like i loved him. I hope our problem will settle sooner cuz i cant stand our fighting. It sucks!